Completely Random

Woo a post.

2005-07-24T22:39:00.000-07:00

Okay so tonight I was thinking, all about what Greg had been saying about selfishness at youth on Monday. His message really got to me and I realized that I am way too selfish, I hold back way too much I don't realize who I'm hurting.

I hold back everything I've got, I hardly ever express my feelings and I take too much for granted, for so many years I've left everything cooped up inside of me and hardly ever exerted myself in a manner to show everyone how much of a hypocrite I am. I've never really strived for perfection because I didn't want to stand out, but I heard a quote the other day that most of you have heard, and I realized that by standing out it doesn't make others insecure, it creates a reason for them to step out of mediocrity and closer to perfection. Obviously no one is perfect other than Jesus, but for now I want to be as close to that as possible.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

So I like I said, no one is perfect aside from Jesus, so if I want to be closer to perfection, should I go closer to Jesus? If by stepping up standards, would that bring others closer to perfection, and with Jesus and perfection being one in the same, I'd feel complete by bringing others closer to Jesus.

Act fast

2005-06-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

Make a difference

End the on-going battle against world poverty.

Just because the G8 summit meeting is over doesnt mean we've lost the fight, there's way more we can do.

Blah

2005-06-07T22:16:00.000-07:00

Not much is new, no more girlfriend, lacrosse started, damper on youth activities, lacrosse team is killing, uhhh, I beat my entire lacrosse team in poker when we were in kamloops. My mom still won't budge for thailand Next year but, Ob-la-di Ob-la-da, life goes on, you know the deal.

Oh and I run on friday for thailand team 05, make pledges to the runners!

Lyrics, and Girl trubs are over.

2005-04-25T23:31:00.000-07:00

So I really liked this songs but the lyrics didn't mena much til I read them.
NOBLE STABBINGS!!!- Dillinger Four

You like to stand on the other side
Point and laugh so self-satisfied
Lines drawn so plain and clear to you
So plain and clear they distort your view
Won't be ashamed of the things I've done
Live for myself I can't march to your drum
You were lost to me long ago
Tried to get past your self righteousness
But you kept me below

I am not unforgiving
But I won't take the fall
Let the ashes surround us
I am not gonna crawl through
Broken glass and razor wire
I don't care if yesterday burns
Stoke up the fire

It's like a shot when you realize
Destroying yourself is not a compromise
Cut off your nose to spite your face
There are some things in life
That time can't erase, you know
We all choose paths that we know are wrong
And live with ourselves
When the meaning is gone
It could be you, me, anyone
But I don't need to feel another's under my thumb

In spite of the things you've don'e, you're left with an army of one
In spite of the things you do, there'll be no one left there with you
In spite of the things you want, you will get what you're due

Arghh

2005-04-19T00:11:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I worded the last part right, I hate stress, so much worse when it comes back and you are no longer stress free.

Been a while

2005-04-18T23:57:00.000-07:00

I've been busy with lacrosse and rugby, I've hung out with some old friends lately too.

Well here I am Stuck between a rock and a hammer, another hit, I'll probably explode. I had such a good day, It was sunny, I skated to school, had rugby and I finally got to go to youth again. It was so good, I got the Oscar for being a girl, but music got me on fire again, I was feeling so close again and I still am.

I came home and watched my favorite movie (The Breakfast Club.) I later, got up and came to the computer, only to find a mildly depressing e-mail.

My girlfriend is at a confusing time and she doesn't know whether she should stay with me, she thinks that I'm losing interest and that I can do better or something. I've tried so hard to get her to believe that she means so much to me, but she can't accept it. I have no Idea what to say, I really just want her to understand. She claims to like me so much and says I mean a lot to her, but she also seems to think it's a one way street. I need your prayers though, and Ideas would be cool too. But thanks anyways ladies and gentlemen. I hope to hear from you.

The Rise and Fall of My Resistance

2005-03-29T22:38:00.000-08:00

I had an amazing day, amazing can't even describe it, no word can, any time I try to describe it, It's not good enough, words are diminishing what I want to say.

Well I was up late talking to Mandi, so I slept in until 1030ish, woke up lazed around, I didn't feel like making plans, I just decided to let things roll, ended up going to Marissas, good time there, Goldmember never gets old. After Marissa's I walked up to the lookout at the abby, on my way up there, I was so happy, I had never felt so alive, I couldn't stop talking to God for like an hour. I got to the abby and it started to hail on me, I took my jacket off because I like the rain.

Even without a long sleeve, I felt the warmest I had ever been, looking out at all of the people, seeing them with their jobs, fancy cars, nice houses, and no time to let loose. I sat there, every problem disappeared, every piece of worry vanished, I was invincible. Every word, thought and body movement meant nothing. I could smell trees, see children playing, hear birds chirping, taste every breath I took, and feel the world around me leave. It was as if someone grabbed me and took all of the weight upon my shoulders, and through it away, right off of the cliff, smashing down at the bottom. There it lie, under me, not taking over me, beneath me but out of my reach, no control, but still staying on top.

I lost my grip, dropped everything, and left.

I was right out of it at Tj's, I was way out of the discussion. In no way was it a bad thing, It felt good enough to be there. I'm not sure what it was, but I beat something today, I left something behind at the lookout other then my problems, I feel lighter, almost weightless.

Male Rights Activist

2005-03-16T19:50:00.000-08:00

I was Reading In Scott's blog the other day about how he was mad about unjust punishment to men that are "abusers." (IN NO WAY DO I AGREE WITH ABUSE.) So why is it that it's okay for a girl to do whatever she wants but when a guy does one thing wrong, the world falls apart. I noticed today that girls can be cruel, they aren't afraid to dish out the insults and talk about people when they aren't there, but as soon as they hear a negative comment directed to them, they act like they were hit by a bus.

The Names In This Story Were Changed For My Safety. Sally said today "Fat George did it for me." "Who's Fat George?" replied Girlette. "The Fat Kid In The Corner" Sally said. "Oh Yeah He's Ugly Too." said Girlette.

From A Distance Arnold Schwartzinsteroids is building up with anger. "Why Don't you girls stop being such females dogs!?" He Yells in a rage. "You're so willing to dish out insults, but when someone calls you a jerk you get mad." "I don't care what people say about me so why should they care?" Sally Says.

Everyone goes back to their work.

"I can't believe he called be a female dog, honestly who is so mean to do that" says Sally to Girlette. "I know, he's always so mean to us, like we have feelings you know." Girlette replies.

So Really I don't understand how they can be such dinks to guys and expect a loving response. I've pretty much stopped caring about these girls because I've heard them talk about me before and I just don't care.

Bad Jokes.

2005-03-09T21:04:00.000-08:00

Why does Snoop Dog Carry An Umbrella?
Fo Drizzle

What does Snoop use to wash his clothes?
Bliatch, for the slower people (bleach)

What Did Fitty Cent say when he got a sweater for Christmas?
Gee, you knit?

Been a while

2005-03-09T20:59:00.000-08:00

Posting today about a poem I wrote a while ago, wierd cause I suck in english. I put it together while I was showering, we'll get into the showering business another time.

High School

Welcome to the best days of your life,

Welcome to an age of Drugs, Violence, and sexual frustration
You will have fights with parents,

Quarrels with booze,
Battles with drugs,
And a war with your self.
If you think its fun, you are a liar,
If you think it’s easy, you are stubborn,

If you came out on top, you cheated,
If you think everything sucks, you’re right.
So fight your battles, win your wars, you will pull through.

Joke

2005-02-23T22:36:00.000-08:00

Q: What has seven arms and sucks?
A: Def Leppard

arrgh

2005-02-23T22:31:00.000-08:00

Well I was just trying to post a gigantic thing about what's happened lately when I went to spell check it and accidentily hit refresh, the best part is that the paragraph ended with "I've Never Felt So Close To God."

Ironic? Or maybe what I wrote was more for me to hear. Everything happens for a reason so I'm finished now.

Make up your mind

2005-02-02T23:10:00.000-08:00

Today in Socials we were talking about middle east culture and this girl begins to talk about how "God gifted women with the ability to bare children, and that's why women are superior."

So now I'm all okay so she cares about females only and apparently loves the Lord. Time goes by and we get on the topic about Nutrition and such. She actually laughed about how badly children over seas have life. So this girl goes on with class, so do I and later she is talking to someone and she shouts "Oh my God!"

It Never used to get to me but now when people are wasting something so great by not devoting themselves and actually doing something about their life. I am not one to judge or anything, I'm still not the greatest person by any means, but that's just beginning to offend me.

2005-01-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

So there I was sitting there, then I move to Evade a purple nurple, and I slash my hand on the lousy skatepark coping. It sucks now I have a cut hand it looks like lips and when I squeeze it, it opens. But nothing really new happened today.

Why?

2005-01-25T18:49:00.000-08:00

Why do people put an I in the place of another letter so often, on Msn I see people using the term boi, is that because the are saying "I want to be with a boy". Then I say this other girl she is obviously obsessed with herself, I mean she even spelled me with an I, "Mi" like honestly why not just spell it right, it's causes no extra effort and doesn't make you look like a fool.

Today

2005-01-24T18:15:00.000-08:00

Meh. Today was quite uneventful, pretty much just went to school went to skatepark and soon to be going to youth, butttt I gotta find a ride first. so I'm ending this now.

Why do girls have to be so darn indirect?

Something that dawned on me.

2005-01-20T22:16:00.000-08:00

So I was sitting thinking of a name to put on my MSN when a thought came across me,
Is It More Important To Have A Friend Or To Be A Friend? How much does it matter about how you feel about other people? If someone was hurt on the street and you were walking by would you poke him to impress your "friend" who walks beside you or give your last five dollars for gum and chocolate to help support a man who hasn't had breakfast in days? If your "friend" is really a friend would he throw you a high five for poking the man or hand you his five in dollars to give?

More Swollen Member Lyrics

2005-01-20T18:29:00.000-08:00

Notice anything neat here, fantastic perhaps?
As ten thousand maniacs emerge form an oasis that’s everclear
My soundgarden was invented to blind melons and smash pumpkins
How could a whole nation of crash test dummies hope to release the grapes
of wrath
On the day of Sabbath knowing it’ll be black
Especially when they might be giants and they take to the air with stonetemple pilots
I’m in a parachute club with the motley crew
My b-52, fires nine inch nails
Radiohead, I cause phonetic quiet riots
My tragically hip fight with the spirit of the west
Society’s no f*ing use to where white zombies have nofx
Now cowboys are turning into junkies
Hanging themselves with lasso’s, singing blues about rodeo’s that once
stood true
Have no time to fight with those fools
Alice’s in chains and cold hearted iron maidens claim the have the ministry
of sound for U2
While everyone’s raging against the machines
Their watching us on satellites form Georgia
But there’s more in my set than Atlantis and it won’t crash into Vegas
cause my man smith has the arrow
The moral to this peril is Hades have no fury and mc’s scorn
And I would continue this verse but nothing rhymes with orange!!

and don't say door hinge rhymes with orange, It Doesn't.

Temptation.

2005-01-20T18:23:00.000-08:00

So I was listening to some swollen members when I came across a song that kind of clicked in my head so I looked up the lyrics on the ol' interweb. The Song Is Called Temptation.

Yo, I'm talking about Temptation things that run through your head
Like I wonder what my friend's girlfriends like in bed
Yo, I bet sometimes she thinks of me instead
Greed, That has to do with more than you need
Sin, That's usually where temptation leads
Turning into an addiction in an instant, take heed
Feeding off your ego, cash confusion and sex
That's why, like, every eight months
You end up back with your ex
For a couple days, and then remember Why it wasn't meant to be
Go your separate ways and think I wonder what got into me
You're done, but then another Eight months comes around eventually
Vicious circle, I've done some things That aren't worth mentioning
Temptation, made me do some things I regret
Easy to fall into, but hard to forget
Use to put the blame on others
But that's a bunch of nonsense
Now I try to focus and Just listen to my conscience

Yo, I'm talking about
Temptation and its relation to the human nation
The obvious, money, drugs, sexual frustration
How else can you explain public funding drain
The escalating murder rate and the climb to fame
It makes men touch parts that are not to be
It makes women clutch parts that are a part of me
So all that surface level services a day-to-day
An ongoing basis in desire and display
The first sensation recognized by script
We can't detach ourselves from it once we get into it
And why would we it feels better with the shadows closer
Comfortable feeling of comparing yours to overdose
Sometimes innocent and other times consequential
9 out of the ten times dun it's purely confidential
Harder to handle when your crews talking in your ear
Until you learn to abstain it draws near
Temptation

I thought that the bold parts were pretty easy to relate too.

Uggh

2005-01-20T13:49:00.000-08:00

I went to school today, unfortunately I fell ill at lunch and came home. then started reading exodus, I think I'm gonna finish it today too. see as how its been two hours and I'm half through.

Found myself

2005-01-20T01:14:00.000-08:00

Tis' late and I realised who I am. Green Apple Jones You can solve pi to 24 places, You enjoy long walks on the beach and short walks when you're tired. Tomorrow you will be met by a man who is trying to sell you something - say no unless you want it. Your lucky numbers for today have just escaped.

Awww Poo. Stupid Lucky Numbers. They must have been 14 23 36 07 21 15 62 20 17 08 o ...
Lousy Jones Soda Quiz. www.jonessoda.com

Joke

2005-01-19T13:16:00.000-08:00

How much does it cost to be a leper?
An Arm and a Leg.

uggh

2005-01-19T13:14:00.000-08:00

I'm still sick, but I didn't have to go to school so I'm pretty happy about that.

In case you don't know

2005-01-18T22:54:00.000-08:00

My website is www.freewebs.com/thompkins_said_a_swear

and Ben Smells

News To Me

2005-01-18T22:37:00.000-08:00

I made a blog, I'm sicker then wearing blue and green right now and I'm bored out of my tiny little mind, So I made a blog.